Stuck in quicksand its just luke4/15/2024 ![]() ![]() I’m quicksanding, so what is that I need: Do I need rest? Have I eaten? Do I need to reach out to a friend? Do I need to get some things down on paper? Do I need a nice cup of tea? Have I been outside today? What loving thing do I need to provide for myself that will act as the hand reaching deep into the quicksand to pull me to safety before the tide comes in. That was the tectonic shift.Įveryone is different, but for me it’s about going back into Alfred mode. What I need to DO, is check in with myself. Yes, I need to DO something, but I DO NOT to be productive. ” And in the beginning, I thought that meant action - I need to get up and DO something. I would catch myself in these quicksanding behaviors and then OUTLOUD I would say, “ You need to make a choice, you’re quicksanding. ![]() Just like quicksand, it wasn’t getting stuck in the sand that got me, it was when the tide came in. What I thought was a harmless, static behavior was actually me getting stuck in water-soaked sand - that meaninglessly scrolling through social media was actually super agitating to me, that lying in bed at night more often than not made way for that super fun “catastrophic what if game” that late night/early mornings seem to breed and that having that default episode of that default show playing in the far background hurt - not helped - my mental health more often than not. In the beginning, I started to label these times as an almost baseline reset or suspended animation, me trying to just sit down and shut everything out or off or something.Īnd I realized that those pockets of time weren’t a baseline reset or shutting anything out. Throughout this pandemic, there have been these pockets of time - I’m at my desk and I get sucked into social media or I’ve woken up in the middle of the night and am now just lying in bed or I’m watching some default episode of a default show that plays just a little TOO much in the background. Which is when I put THAT together with this other phenomenon that’s been happening. So, it’s the water that actually gets you. I was watching some episode the other night where they were talking about quicksand and ( now get ready for me paraphrasing what I kiiinnnnd of learned with what I can kiiiind of remember due to my current Goldfish Brain ) was surprised to find out that it’s not the quicksand that’ll kill ya, it’s that you’ve walked on water-soaked sand, gotten stuck and now the tide’s coming in. I’ve watched untold seasons and this newsletter is dangerously close to becoming a full blown Sandi Toksvig stan account. There was the Thor: Ragnarok and puzzle phase, the Jane Austen phase, the truly bizarre Frozen 2 phase and now I’m in the Qi phase. I’ve started to break this time down into Phases.
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